Feeling extremely down today, missing MUM so much that words can never explain. Not looking forward to tomorrow, my partner Andy is going back to work after taking a week off to help me with my daily routine, and dad is also going to try getting back into work, its going to be the first time I`m on my own since my MUM was stolen from our lives and is going to be very hard, especially that Monday`s was the day we did the whole of Romford and Sainsbury`s with mum not thinking twice about spending money on all her grandchildren and daughters, doing her shopping as well as getting a bag of shopping for us, it was impossible for her to do her shop without doing ours also (parts of it anyway), stopping to chat as MUM was well known and liked by many people (will be a very long time before I can do my shopping in Sainsbury). Trying to get back to normal is going to be a massive thing for all of us grieving as there is no normal, we have to find a new normal xxx